The one when I talk about creche

I joined the gym this week. Hurrah! One New Years Resolution I've kept. Well, only half-kept this far, as I haven't started using it yet. But it's still progress! While I was there I checked out the creche facility. This time last year, there's no way I would have ever even entertained that possibility. Uh-uh. No way. No way I'm leaving my kids with strangers. Someone could sweep along, like an evil angel out of low-lying cloud, and pluck them up and away. Did I mention how I loathe July? I loathe it. This time last year I'd just begun counselling for my rampant anxiety attacks, which the doctor said belonged under the PND umbrella. Back then, it would've been the hormones, the new baby, the everything blah-blah-blah every new mother would understand. This year? I'm doing better, but still I reckon, like the rest of us who live in the colder climes, I am affected by SAD (seasonal affective disorder). Maybe. Anyway - cut the the gym. That's why we're there. I need exercise. The creche leader was very patient with all my questions (just because I keep my anxiety in check doesn't mean I need to know all about the workers, right down to their medicare card numbers, favourite colours and horoscope, and just to get a vibe of the place.) Then we got to the clincher: WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU LEAVE AND THE KIDS GET UPSET? She set her shoulders, ready to go, "Well, its up to the parent. Some say, come and get me if they don't stop crying in five minutes. Some say, come get me after 10 minutes if they're still upset. Some say come get me right away. Some say, let 'em cry, the doctor said I need a break and I NEED A BREAK!" I swear to God, that's what she said down to the word. "The doctor said..." I wonder how many mums are ordered - just as I was - to get out and exercise, just get out, be active. I wonder why it's taken me this long to join. Just because I don't like leaving my kids at creche for an hour doesn't mean I shouldn't. It's taken me three+ years of motherhood just to figure that out. For those of you interested, here are my stats: Weight: 53kgs (116 pounds) Height: 161 cms (5 ft 2in - I'm short) BMI: 20% (please don't hate me) We'll see if/how they change after a few months. Update: I want to be at pains to stress, I am not feeling compelled to join the gym to lose weight. Anyone who knows my history would possibly feel worried at such a suggestion, and I emphatically state no, no, no. I do not want to lose weight. I just want to get fit. There is a difference.